Who am I to you?

Did you ever see the film The Last Kiss?

Good film I think. Made me wonder who I was in it.

Made me wonder who he was too. Was he Zach Braff or Casey Affeck? Was I effectively Rachel Bilson? - someone I wouldn't mind being compared to normally, but not on this occasion.

He's probably neither really, but it still got me thinking.

Are we really friends? We know the score really, his emails never mention her.

So why does he keep in touch?

Because he wishes things were different?

Because he wants to keep his options open?

Because he feels obligated? guilty?

Or, in my darker thoughts, simply because he wants to keep me sweet so I don't cause trouble?

I wish someone else would come in and take over my heart.

Would he miss me if I stopped replying?

I'd miss him, and I hate that.